Natural FET Diary CD17 - Egg Transfer Day

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I've woken up with butterflies in my tummy.. Anxious about this mornings call! Praying and hoping for good news

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Sophie the embryologist called.. I was clinging hold of whether it was "sorry to inform you.." or "I'm pleased to say.." Thank God it was the latter. Out of the 3 IVF blastocysts that were thawed 2 survived and are of "good" quality.. (not excellent, I guess.. Do I want too much??) I've shed a tear for the one that didn't make it.. :,( I feel so attached to them - willing them all to do well. But I'll look at it from the other point of view that I have 2 good blastocysts and it only takes 1.
She did the usually script of if they remain of good quality I will be highly likely to have twins.. Etc etc etc.. I've heard it at every appointment with nurture now. We've both read up on the risks of multiple pregnancy

"Hang in there Star & Clover... please improve over the next few hours!!"

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Thankfully Lucky has kept me busy this morning; been to a toddler group, organised his bits for this afternoon with MIL and just put him down for a nap.. 1hr 30mins till Star & Clover are back where they belong! Really hoping and praying they are both thriving still.

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"They will both still be there and of good quality"

"They will both still be there and of good quality"

"They will both still be there and of good quality"

I'm officially an emotional wreck! I've cried the entire journey here.. I presume they would have phoned if they hadn't of survived? I can't cope... I can barely breathe.. I feel sick! Sweet Jesus, I'm a bag of nerves

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What a difference an hour makes ;) I'm pregnant with 2x A grade blastocysts.. Absolutely thrilled to pieces. Star & Clover are back home where they should be. I'm in love. My family is complete.. Can't wait to see them at the scan in a few months.. Hang in there spuds xx

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At home resting in bed with my crochet and novel .. It was horrible Lucky running up to me as I came through the door, asking to be picked up for a cuddle :( I'm going to try and refrain from lifting him for the first week... MIL, Dan & Lucky have gone out to give me some time to rest. Just checked my email and received a message from the embryologist with a picture of my perfect beautiful blastocyst.. Just seeing them reminded me of Lucky on ET day and during the 2ww :)
I didn't have time to write this earlier; in the theatre I had the nurse, embryologist and consultant explain that I shouldn't have them both back in due to the quality of them - if the cycle is successful I have a high chance of it being a multiple birth (twins or triplets due to them being blasts) which brings about increase chance of miscarriage, health complications, stillbirth etc etc. Talk about put you on under pressure. I ended up calling Dan (partly to get them out of the room so I could think clearly) and just to give him an update. Poor guy was half asleep still from his night shift and no idea what I was on about! We left it as; whatever is meant to be.. Will happen! Nurture weren't happy but they don't refreeze after thaw (due to lack of medical research).. So how on earth can I leave my "baby" to perish!??
Anywho.. It's done now! :) I'm on cloud 9 ... Over the moon...

Snuggle up tight Star & Clover.. Make yourself at home, you'll be there for 9mths xx

Natural FET Diary CD15 - How Many To Transfer? 1 or 2?

I'm feeling really bloated, hot & bothered and flustered ... Clearly due to the cyclogest!

Tracey the embryologist called about 9am to confirm whether I was going for 1 or 2 blastocyst.

If I go for 1 blastocyst, they will thaw 2 and use the best 1.

If I go for 2 blastocyst, they will thaw 3 and use the best 2.

We are opting for the 3 IVF blastocyst to be thawed, leaving the ICSI one.

They try not to transfer both ICSI and IVF embryo's as the HFEA like to know which was successful, but if the thaw doesn't go well they will use the ICSI

I'm usually positive but I've naively thought the thaw would be ok. I kind of forgot about the 70% successful thaw rate and reading that for some women nothing thaws! :-(

Going to try and take my mind of it now.. Decisions made and i will have 2 blastocyst transferred on Monday!!

I will get a call between 0830 and 0900 to see how they have thawed. I'm pencilled in for ET at 1230 but "that depends on if we have anything to transfer" (...as she put it!) and may change depending on the other ladies booked in. I'll need to be there for 1200.

I'm off to squeeze Lucky ..I hope I can get him a sibling!! :-/




Update.. I'm confused isn't 3 too many to use?? I've left a voicemail message with nurture, but doubt anyone will pick it up on a Sunday??!

Pic of the day: me in the bath drinking camomile tea & sparkling myself some much needed babydust...

Natural FET Diary CD13 - Cyclogest Front or Back?!

It's my last full day at work :) got to pop in on Tuesday but just to finish off some paperwork than i'll head back home.

Completely forgot whether cyclogest goes vaginally or anally ... So opted for anally; less mess.

I called Nurture in the morning to let them know I've ovulated and to confirm where I put the cyclogest.

- cyclogest is vaginally inserted
- twice a day
- starting from ovulation

Popped to Tescos after work and have a basket typical for any IVF 2ww woman ;)
- 4 or 5 brazil nuts a day
- small glass of pineapple
- panty liner for the messy cyclogest
- pregnancy tests! Tesco own brand was recommended to me as a friend got a bfp 9dpo with them.. And only £3.50 for 2 - bargain!!