Scan at 4 weeks & 4 days Pregnant

There are TWO sacs!!!!

I'm thrilled, over the moon and feel so blessed :)

Next scan is 5th Oct to detect how many heartbeats develop

x

Confirming Pregnancy

Confirmed With Husband 19/09

Lucky woke Dan with a gift bag filled with shredded tissue paper AND a Clearblue Digital Pregnancy test..

Yep, Dan finally knows!

I've been desperate to tell him but after being heartbroken with Luckys early test which was a bfn, he vowed never to do an early test again...

In Dans words "..the R***** family just got bigger" :)

Early pregnancy unit will be doing a test on Wednesday. yet another milestone to get through! :S

..and our clinic will also do betas

..this will. be a long week!



Confirmed with Nurture
...I've been contacting Nurture the last few days.. Leaving 2 messages a day.. Do I have a reply? Nothing, nada, zilch!
Typical nurture. So peed off, part of me think why should I bother calling them again..

4DP BFP!! Successful Natural FET ?? - 2ww Diary

1dp 5dt (TUESDAY)
All symptoms I've been feeling since starting cyclogest!

• Constipated
• Dull aches in tummy and lower back

Pic of the day: At home finished work for the next 17days!!! Chill out time whilst I watch OBEM twins & triplets... eek!

2dp 5dt (WEDNESDAY)
Resting & Relaxing

• 3 sharp twinges
• Crazy but, after gripping hold of the sink through the pain of the twinges, I equally punched the air in delight that I was getting some symptoms as I did with Lucky at this stage.
• Dull back and tummy ache; bloated from cyclogest
• Tender tummy

3dp 5dt (THURSDAY)
Hormonal Wreck - BEWARE!

• Tearful, emotional wreck no symptoms like Lucky.. Just want alcohol, a hot bath and  to go back to work!
• Fed up of this IVF malarkey...
• Just want my life back

4dp 5dt (FRIDAY)
OMG - BFP!

• Dull back ache
• Dull heaviness / bloated tummy
• Sharp pains once in a while
• If you squint real hard and use a magnifying glass you may recognise a BFP

Why did I test so early?
Firstly, this was a natural cycle so I don't have any trigger shot to worry about... Most importantly, I was losing my mind! I honestly don't know how women get through the 2ww without wanting to test? I've been TTC since 2006 and NEVER get the pleasure of POAS with a slight glimmer of hope that it will be a BFP, because its near impossible! IVF gives me the chance to POAS with the hope, that moment of 'will it work?' so yes, your right.. waiting till the OTD is ideal... but for me, I was losing my marbles on google, over analysing every and anything my body did, lost sleep thinking about it.. So for ME testing early works. If it was a BFN (it took the full 3mins to give this result... and believe me 3mins can feel like a lifetime!!) ...I'd cry, grieve and move on. No more wondering, over thinking, driving myself insane!

5dp 5dt (SATURDAY)

• Only a couple sharp pains when they stop I feel dizzy
• Nausea whilst on the tram to my friends wedding reception
• Hormonal / emotional wreck.. I could verbally rip someones head off (my husband would do fine!)
• Met the lovely CFB from fertility friends.. Walked around Nottm and both lost going home, looking forward to seeing her again tomorrow :) x

6dp 5dt (SUNDAY)
Another bfp - getting darker! No squinting needed..

• Sharp tingle on right ovary
• Then 12hrs later another slight pain.. Not as frequent as the last few days
• Whilst laying down I had a wave of "letdown reflex" feeling ... I'm not sure how else to describe it. But during breastfeeding you have this sensation from the chest to the nipple when it's time to feed. Basically this is your milk coming down aka as 'let down'.... and I just had the same feeling! I stopped feeding Lucky 9mths ago in prep for IVF so it's definitely nothing to do with him!!
• Less tummy cramps, but deep throb at my back for hours....
• I can't believe it..... As Karen from FF said: I'm not PUPO, I'm PREGNANT!! ...and so will she be, as my bump buddy xx

I can't believe this time last week Clover & Star were still frozen...!! I just hope and pray with every cell of my body this isn't taken away from me... I don't think I can cope with another miscarriage. I've prayed for a BFP if they are healthy and make the full 9mths....

Hoping this week continues with BFPs with a line that gets stronger and thicker.

7DP 5DT (Monday)

• Cramps have stopped, but i guess implantation has come to an end now?? Who knows...
• Sore / sensitive boobs

Lines are getting darker and thicker!

Found my pregnancy journal from Lucky, so going to start completing week 3 for Clover & Star... very surreal!

8DP 5DT (Tuesday)

• Sore boobs & sensitive when Lucky tries to touch them!
• 2/3 cramps only lasting a few seconds
• Tired

 

I've still got a few more spare tests but think I will stop now till the clearblue digitals at the weekend... (ha, who am I kidding?!)

 

 

Natural FET Diary CD17 - Egg Transfer Day

0700
I've woken up with butterflies in my tummy.. Anxious about this mornings call! Praying and hoping for good news

0827
Sophie the embryologist called.. I was clinging hold of whether it was "sorry to inform you.." or "I'm pleased to say.." Thank God it was the latter. Out of the 3 IVF blastocysts that were thawed 2 survived and are of "good" quality.. (not excellent, I guess.. Do I want too much??) I've shed a tear for the one that didn't make it.. :,( I feel so attached to them - willing them all to do well. But I'll look at it from the other point of view that I have 2 good blastocysts and it only takes 1.
She did the usually script of if they remain of good quality I will be highly likely to have twins.. Etc etc etc.. I've heard it at every appointment with nurture now. We've both read up on the risks of multiple pregnancy

"Hang in there Star & Clover... please improve over the next few hours!!"

1103
Thankfully Lucky has kept me busy this morning; been to a toddler group, organised his bits for this afternoon with MIL and just put him down for a nap.. 1hr 30mins till Star & Clover are back where they belong! Really hoping and praying they are both thriving still.

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"They will both still be there and of good quality"

"They will both still be there and of good quality"

"They will both still be there and of good quality"

I'm officially an emotional wreck! I've cried the entire journey here.. I presume they would have phoned if they hadn't of survived? I can't cope... I can barely breathe.. I feel sick! Sweet Jesus, I'm a bag of nerves

1258
What a difference an hour makes ;) I'm pregnant with 2x A grade blastocysts.. Absolutely thrilled to pieces. Star & Clover are back home where they should be. I'm in love. My family is complete.. Can't wait to see them at the scan in a few months.. Hang in there spuds xx

1551
At home resting in bed with my crochet and novel .. It was horrible Lucky running up to me as I came through the door, asking to be picked up for a cuddle :( I'm going to try and refrain from lifting him for the first week... MIL, Dan & Lucky have gone out to give me some time to rest. Just checked my email and received a message from the embryologist with a picture of my perfect beautiful blastocyst.. Just seeing them reminded me of Lucky on ET day and during the 2ww :)
I didn't have time to write this earlier; in the theatre I had the nurse, embryologist and consultant explain that I shouldn't have them both back in due to the quality of them - if the cycle is successful I have a high chance of it being a multiple birth (twins or triplets due to them being blasts) which brings about increase chance of miscarriage, health complications, stillbirth etc etc. Talk about put you on under pressure. I ended up calling Dan (partly to get them out of the room so I could think clearly) and just to give him an update. Poor guy was half asleep still from his night shift and no idea what I was on about! We left it as; whatever is meant to be.. Will happen! Nurture weren't happy but they don't refreeze after thaw (due to lack of medical research).. So how on earth can I leave my "baby" to perish!??
Anywho.. It's done now! :) I'm on cloud 9 ... Over the moon...

Snuggle up tight Star & Clover.. Make yourself at home, you'll be there for 9mths xx

IVF Two Week Wait via Instagram Pictures

Those of you who know me personally, will be aware that I'm a complete instagram addict!

It's been killing me not being able to upload pictures during this cycle..

So I just set up an account.. Username boowantsbaby

I'll enjoy posting pics of Mondays ET, during the 2ww ...& those positive home pregnancy tests without everyone who knows me seeing!